The Tales of Carmensakura

I'm only human. Sometimes, I get tired and I feel down. Sometimes, I feel overwhelmed with what I have and it's tiring. I guess the expectations are chaining me down sometimes. I feel frustrated and disappointed. People say 'think positive, be happy or change your thoughts.' It makes me want to laugh. If only it were so simple. Thing is, it isn't. So, please, don't look at me with your expectations. I will only disappoint you. I'm only human and sometimes, I'm retarded. I know I need to reconcile with myself and change my thoughts but give me time. I guess I'll just need to reconcile with myself or else, I'll remain angry for nothing.

Well, my A level course will be over in about 3 to 4 months time. So now, on to the next thing in my life. What am I going to study for my degree? Hmm... This is a tough question. Anyhow, in my original list of what to study was :  - broadcasting   (I think this should just be a hobby) -law  (it's a love-hate relationship with this subject, so, I'm not sure. Some days, I love it. On other days, I absolutely hate it.) -economics  (I'm cool with this subject & there are days when I love it. Never hated this subject before though) - business (Definitely too mainstream) -psychology  (I will study this as minor subject) -finance (Sounds like a good idea as I really do love money and accounting currently.) So now, it's down to these three (Law, finance & economics.) I wonder what I should choose.  If you were to advice me, what do you think I should choose? What should I study for my degree? Law Finance Economics    pollc

This is the reason why I still like Japanese stuff. It takes my attention and touches my heart. There's just something about it that I love.  So yea. I got nothing much to say so, here, enjoy a nice japanese song with lyrics & translation so that you understand the story behind it.  

It's incredible how time just flies. It only felt like yesterday when I entered college, now, my course is almost over. But then again, my course is a short one (one and a half years only). Well, it's almost over. Frankly, I don't know if I'll do well or not. I also don't know what will happen from now on.  Will I further my studies? If I do, will I do it locally or overseas? What will I study? Or will I just go get a job? I just don't know. We'll just wait and see what happens. After all, no one really knows what will happen. C'est la vie~!