The Tales of Carmensakura

Because of the chinese new year holidays, I have been relatively lazy. And I shouldn't be. My exams are in two months time. So it's time to buck up and go full gear. It doesn't help that my head and heart are not in a focused point.  I am too busy thinking about something else that is not exam related. And I should stop. Anyhow, it's just time I get up and go for my exams!!

I have taken so many personality quizzes in my life but my favourite has always been the Myers-Briggs personality quiz. You can take the quiz here . Or you can google it and find a more accurate one according to your taste. Your choice. I have found the Myers-Briggs personality quiz to be the easiest to take and the results are quite accurate. Not only that, the results are understandable too. Harder ones are sometimes too complicated but I love those too. Anyhow, I am an ENFP. In some ways, it's quite true. I am that way, in some sense. But of course, I have to remember that the personality type result is not everything. I am more than just an ENFP. I am also a person.  But having a personality type result do help to explain alot of things and make  you feel less alone at times. lol. Anyhow, as an ENFP, we have a major problem at times. We are both feeling and intuitive. So that means, we are good at perceiving things and noticing little details of people. We like

Recently, I visited a friend in a hospital with other friends because she had dengue fever. As I visited her in the hospital, all of a sudden, I felt very grown up.  Maybe, it's because most of my university classmates are turning 21 this year and I can tell that some of them takes it seriously. They do throw parties and such. I turned 21 last year however, it never quite mean anything to me because I didn't have time to think about it. I had to focus on my exams and so that drowned out all thoughts about turning 21. Even though I did turn 21 and that was supposed to signify that I have now become a grown up but I never quite felt like an adult. Well, I wouldn't say that I feel like a child or a teenager. But I feel like I am in between the transition of a teenager and an adult. I am neither here or there. And at first, I did feel left out because through facebook, I could see that most of my high school classmates have grown into adults through their dressings

Music conveys a lot. And for me, there's often a few songs that I relate to or managed to say a situation that I went through before really well. I just found a song that managed to say a situation that I felt before really well. A song that I really connected to on a spiritual level. I haven't found a song that ever talked about a situation like this before so this song is the first and it suits it really well too. I embedded the video here. However, do ignore the video because it is a little weird. Even I can't watch it. I just listen to the music but ignore the video completely. I am going to paste the translation lyrics here. The seasons die out, one after another; the voice of death becomes wind A man not susceptible to the charms of the city looks up at the moon and notices how unrefined it all is. In a life stuck in mud, the rain itself tastes of alcohol With eyes filled with apathy as they wander the city, I’m an innocent man acting suspiciousl