The Tales of Carmensakura

This is about what I feel regarding money. Hence this is going to be a long and rather personal post. Disclaimer, this are just my thoughts. There's no right or wrong when it comes to this kind of things. Money. Let's be real. I have alot of emotions attached to it. I even majored in something related to money because I was just so curious.  Thanks to what I studied, I understood how the financial system work and why it was created. Learning about it gave me the illusion that I understood it. It also made me think that I was rational when it came to money. But the reality wasn't true and it also took time for me to figure that out. When I got my first job and handled my own finances, I took pride in doing it right. I tracked my expenses and I even have a spreadsheet of my bank accounts. I knew where my money was and what I did with it. (Not that I had much. Haha) The thing that mattered was that I was doing all the right things. But despite doing these things, it didn'

Yesterday, I made Japanese curry rice and miso soup for dinner. It was pretty good and I was super full from it. Honestly, I don't really cook much because I grew up in a home where the kitchen was my mum's domain and she didn't really want us messing with it. She also didn't want us to get hurt so that's fair. But as I grew older, I realised that I love food. I love eating them and I also would like to create them.  I don't get much opportunity to cook much because well, I'm busy and I'm good at procrastinating. But yesterday, I made these from scratch.  I'll be honest. It wasn't easy. Everything was very unfamiliar to me. Thankfully it was just potatoes and carrots but cutting them was not easy. I was worried about getting cut by the knife pretty often. I'm also not sure if the knife sharpness was an issue, I definitely had difficulty with cutting the carrots. Luckily, it doesn't really matter what shapes the carrots and potatoes are cu

So I finally went out for the first time since the lockdown, it was definitely an interesting experience. My lockdown experience started later than most people. Since I was essential worker, for the first month of the lockdown, I still had to go to the office. But the whole March - April was such an insane period. I went to office every day. Then the rules changed because my supervisor was trying to keep me safe and it changed to going to the office every alternate day. It changed again when April came because finally, I had all the company system remote access. So from mid April onwards, I begun working from home. So technically, I haven't left my house since April.  It was definitely a weird experience. Did I miss being outside? Did I miss enjoying the cup of matcha latte in a nice cafe? Absolutely. But at the same time, in my head, there's a tiny little alarm that goes, it's not quite safe yet . And that's true. The vaccine isn't here yet.  Luckily the shop wasn&