The Tales of Carmensakura

Exercise and I always have an interesting relationship. In the past, I have worked out before the point where I had toned arm muscles and I was so proud of that. Then, I stopped working out and my toned arm muscles disappeared. Ever since then, I occasionally wanted to get back into shape and worked out.  Back in high school, I joined karate-do and their warm ups and activities were rather intense. I would sweat heavily and be very sore. It was every Friday. Then, during Alevels, I truly focused on my studies and forgot about exercising. I just really wanted to focus on my studies and found exercising annoying. I felt that I could use the exercising time for more studies. Soon my degree came. I only exercised occasionally when I felt like it. I did want to be more fit  but my motivation was not always there. I felt that the reason my motivation isn't there is because I only felt like being fit when it suited my mood. Depending on mood means that you won't do it cons

A friend of mine was tagged in a post. In that post, it stated that she was in a relationship with this person.  I wished her congratulations. But somehow this made me think.  There's nothing wrong with posting on social media. I'm myself post on social media often. (Especially twitter) . But it made me think though. Am I in the generation or times where if it's not on social media or in pictures, it did not happen and hence, it's not real? I been told before, if there's no pictures and you didn't post it online, it didn't happen. But it did happen.  So just because I didn't show the world, it didn't matter? I dislike how I personally sometimes look to social media for validation. I'm still working on this. Hence, I don't always post but I still post occasionally. I'm trying to find a good balance. I just don't like how we go, if it's not on social media, it didn't happen. Look, not everything needs to b

Before I start, I want to warn you that this is gonna be a long post filled with possible anger, rants and just emotions. So yea. Beware~! Anyway, I was just thinking about the past again because someone mentioned a name from the past that I haven't heard in a long, long while. So, that obviously brought me back to high school times because that was when it happened. Like I said before in the past, I wasn't a fan of high school because I had some tough times there but to say that it was all bad is false. Because I did have good times. It's a bittersweet time.  So I was just thinking about my ex-best friend. To be honest, for a while, I felt that I have moved on because I felt like I have forgiven her and it didn't hurt anymore when I thought of her. And then, one day, she got tagged in a mutual friend's facebook post so she was on my facebook timeline. Looking at it, I felt somewhat hurt and attacked. Suddenly, I realise that maybe I haven't moved o