The Tales of Carmensakura

I had an interesting week. Last weekends, I represented my school as a 3rd speaker for the national debate competition. Unfortunately, we lost...BADLY. Our stupid 1st speaker ruined EVERYTHING. And it doesn't help when our school teachers knows absolutely nothing about debate. So poor me and the 2nd speaker had to do all the research on our motion and about debate while our 1st speaker did nothing but shake her ugly leg. And honestly, the 2nd speaker and I were VERY frustrated. We worked hard and she ruined everything. And the sad thing is...we were also so close to winning. We lost only by a few marks...and it was her fault because her speaking abilities wasn't good. Even the judge says so. *SIGH* I was so close to an emotional breakdown...however, my 2nd speaker actually had an emotional breakdown and I don't blame her. It's hard to look at the trophy and know it's yours but it can't be yours due to a certain person. Therefore, on Monday, the day of my inter-c...

Man, it feels odd to have people believe in you at the very moment you do not trust yourself. It feels odd to hear people's praises of you when you're feeling incapable. So I guess, it's time for one of my many alter ego to suit up if I wanna win that debate competition!! Like any other person, I have many alter ego's...and I'm gonna list most of them today. Ms Drama Queen Likes : Attention and spotlight. She's a diva. Dislikes : People stealing her spotlight or not getting her spotlight. She is : A real drama queen. She whines & complains alot though. She thinks that the world revolves around her. Can't handle : Ms Productive Ms Arrogant Likes : Winning, winning and winning. Dislikes : Losing and losers. She is : A real mean arrogant person. She really doesn't care about the other people. She thinks she is the best. Mostly, she thinks that her opponents aren't even her equal unless they have proven otherwise. Even then, she still thinks she i...

Are you right-handed or left-handed? Totally right-handed Have you ever had anything removed from your body? Err...I don't think so What is the last heavy item you lifted? Hmm...heavy boxes...yea... What is your salad dressing of choice? Kraft's Thousand Island... What is your favorite sit-down restaurant? Tony Roma. It's the BEST! What food could you eat for 2 weeks straight and not get sick of it? Spagetti, lasagna, ham sandwich and pizza...hehe..don't I sound Italian? What are your pizza toppings of choice? Pepperoni and cheese...yum! What do you like to put on your toast? I don't like toast. If it were possible, would you want to know the day you were going to die? Nah, the element of surprise will be lost. I prefer to just drop dead,surprised. If you could change your name, what would you change it to? Melissa or Monica. I really like those names and I almost called myself Melissa or Monica when I was 9. Would you drink an entire bottle of hot sauce for $1000? ...

Listen to this song and it's lyrics. How I wish it was true.. Imagine a world without countries, religion or races. Why can't we connected by one world government? With one world government, poverty and war will be gone. Education will be for all and there will no longer be any refugees because there are no countries. Why can't we just forget about religion and just say that we believe in god and that we will not do bad things? Without races, there'll be no races. Why can't we just say that we are not from any race except that we are apart of the human race? If we created these borders, we can also destroy them. Why can't we just hold each other hands and smile? I wait for that day to come.... John Lennon is a genius for making this song!!

Recently, I just watched Pride and prejudice for the billionth time. (You really have no idea how many times I watch this movie!) I love this movie. (Maybe, I should read the book??) Anyhow, it's obvious Jane Austen is a feminist! She definitely supports independent woman. And the title Pride and Prejudice is perfect since it does play on the theme of pride and vanity. I don't know if Jane Austen wrote this in the way she imagine her perfect life to be or if she wrote it in skepticism because Jane Austen never married and she never like the idea of marriage. However, in pride and prejudice, I like the fact that she convey marriage as something pleasant and I agree with her idea of marriage. Marriage is about marrying somebody you, that partner completes you and inspires you. Your partner must be someone you're willing to share a family with. Now on with Mr.Darcy, I realize that there are many girls out there who loves him. Some people even say he is the perfect man. Somehow...