The Tales of Carmensakura

It's time to write since I am on break but I do not know which story I should write. At first, I thought I should write out the stories that are the oldest and completed. And right now, that story is a love story about Laura & Nathan.  Laura & Nathan story has been completed and it's my oldest story (it's 6-7 years old). I am so happy to have this story to be written because it is about time. However, another story, Xerxes is being completely annoying because it keeps popping up begging me to write it. It keeps popping up in my head, pushing Laura & Nathan to a corner. Xerxes is crying and pleading for me to write it. BUT it's really not his turn because it's only 4 years old and it's story is half finished. I keep telling him to stop and wait in line because once Laura & Nathan is over, it will be it's turn. But no...... he doesn't want to wait. He keeps shouting, crying and begging. And I almost want to just write ab...

Well, this year alone, when it comes to writing, I have accomplished alot. One, I finished a short story (Aletheia) Two, I finished a novel, (World's Apart). It feels good to finish my writing. Especially World's Apart. After years and years of both planning and writing, it really makes me happy that it's completed now. But for World's Apart, it's still unedited. So yes, it's done but it has not been checked or properly edited. I'm still glad that it's done though. Its' birth feels long overdue. Anyhow, to celebrate its birth, I got an artist to make a book cover for World's Apart. And the artist is so kind to even make it for free.  The Book Cover is made by Skye. THANK YOU, DEAR~!! HOW CAN I EVER REPAY YOU?!! Look at the book cover, it's so beautiful. I really love it. It really makes my novel feel edgy, radical and absolutely cool. Whether or not, that is true, I really don't know. But it sure makes me want to read my...

I know that I should have studied during November instead of writing. But I had to do it. I had to write in November. I had to dedicate the month of November to my story, plot and characters. WHY? Well, day after day, month after month, I am busy with school or my social life or something. You just put everything else first, telling yourself that writing can wait. Writing can be done later because you are busy now. But the thing is, time passes, and you are still busy. Busy with school and life. So busy that I have no time for writing. And someone who loves writing, that pisses me off. The writer part in me gets mad and dies a little. I keep putting writing off. So, in November, for once, I want my story to come first. I wanted writing to come first. A month just to dedicate everything to it. To let the writing part in me to come out and express itself. To let my characters and plots grow. To just write. Everything else can wait. So, I have no regrets. Yes, I might ...

I just finished my first novel which is World's Apart. FINALLY. After years and years of creating it and finally, writing it down. I feel so proud and happy. But at the same time, I feel sad because I miss it already. NaNoWriMo really helped to push me so that I could finish it. So right now, I am thankful for the existence of NaNoWriMo. Without NaNoWriMo, I would have never even started writing my novel. So yea. But I am really glad that I could finish it. Atleast, in this lifetime, I managed to write a novel. So if I die, there is one thing I can be proud of and be glad about. Even if my story sucks, I will forever be proud of this story.  My characters and plot are beautiful and wonderful. So, if it sucks, it's my fault for not being a better writer and for not having a better imagination. Like they say, a carpenter never blame his tools. So, if my story sucks, it isn't the story's fault but it's mine. But even then, I would...

My goal for nanowrimo this year is to finish my novel that I have been writing. After all, this novel has been in progress for years because I procrastinate alot. So, I feel that it's time to finish it. After all, a novel shouldn't take too long. Anyhow, after a week of constant writing at night,  my word count sucks but I can feel the story ending. My story has reached the last two arc. Soon, it will end. The funny thing is, as much as I want to end, now that I am beginning to reach the end, I feel reluctant and not ready. I am not ready to let go of this baby. I find it funny and weird. My emotions are conflicting. And nanowrimo so far has been interesting. Sometimes it's fun and nice to see the story progress. Other times it's hard because the word count is shit, the story is shit & the words that come out is shit. I also find it hard to balance my life because I have university in the day and I feel overwhelmed by its work.  But I decided ...

I was going to get mad at myself for putting my novel that is unfinished on hold. But then, I realized that, just this year alone, I have wrote a lot more than I did last year or the year before that. And that is good. For the first time, I have a finished work which is a short story. Yay! I actually finished something and that feels good. It makes me feel like a bonafide writer. Other than that, I have an ongoing projects such as my naruto hashimada fanfiction. I know fanfiction shouldn't quite count but it does because it forces me to write and to have deadlines. So, it's a good thing. It's pushing me and stretching me further as a writer. I really like that.  And, I have new stories but they do originate from me combining two completed (idea wise) stories together. Yup, this is just me being lazy, trying to shorten my to write list. But the crazy thing is, by combining two different stories together, I come to have something that is much more solid, crazy a...

Writing has always come so naturally to me. Personally, I enjoy writing a lot. So, when I found out recently that what I wrote in the past can come back to haunt me, it surprises me. When I write, I do it for my sake. Therefore, if my writing has ever offended anyone, then, I am sorry. I never meant to offend. I have always wrote to express myself. Even when I wrote stories such as Coeur Noir or anything, it is for my own self-expression.  I know, some people might say, keep this writing in private then if it may offend people. Well, true.... But then again, stories are meant to be told. And so, I write and let them be known. Speaking of stories, I have just finished writing a short story on greek mythology. It's about Hades & Persephone. It is called, " Aletheia  " Personally, I am very proud of this. Even though, it did take me a week to complete this but I am glad because it is my first finished work as a writer. YA...

I know that I did not update my blog last week. I apologize for that. I was busy with preparation for a debate. What debate you ask? Well, my college is having a debate and I was chosen as a teamleader. SIGHS. So yea. Anyhow, since I have nothing for you. All I can offer you is two things. One , my writing works called the " The Young Queen " It is the alternate reality of one of my stories where she dies differently and also an attempt to write in an Edgar Allan Poe style. (I think I failed at the Edgar Allan Poe style though. sighs) Two , I can only introduce to you this awesome Japanese Rock Band called, ONE OK ROCK. This band blew my mind away in just one song. Well, good music is universal. Or rather, good rock is universal. You don't need to quite understand the lyrics sometimes. All you need is to feel it and their music does exactly that. AND I just love rocking out to it completely~~! And this is all I been listening to all week~~~! PS : I...

My "childhood" friend and I had a falling out, if you can call it that. Frankly, I don't even know what to call it. Because, one day, I woke up and realized that she sucked as a person and a friend. And so, I confronted her on how she is never there for me. Then, she blocked me on twitter. So yea. And in response to that, I grabbed a cup of starbucks (thanks to the free redemption for registering the starbucks card)   [thanks to the friends who got me that awesome starbucks card. ] Once I grab a starbucks cup, a story will always follow after it. So in response to her blocking me to twitter, I wrote Coeur Noir. I guess, it's just what I wanted to say. Coeur Noir Part 1 Coeur Noir Part 2 (oh, I also posted this in the My stories part.) So yea. And that is all I have to say for this week.

I know I should be writing. But first, I need to find motivation and right now, I can't find it. Anyhow, I have so much love for all my characters that I decided to make a picture name for all of them. This is just a tribute to all of them. To show them that I love all of them. The bigger ones are the more important and more well developed characters.The bigger ones are also my favourites.  But that doesn't mean, I don't care about the others. I love them all.  Equally? That, I'm not sure.  But I do love them all.

Let me warn you first. This may turn out to be quite a long ranting post. So yea. Frankly, I'm not really sure to call this a writer's block. I mean, I know how the story go and I know how it would end.  But every time, I stare at the blank screen, I don't know what to write for that moment. World's Apart . One of my stories. It already has 50000 words. I should finish it. But I don't how to pick it up from where it left off. And apart of me, wants to reedit it or to rewrite it. I don't know why. But when I want to do it, I just get so lazy or so demotivated. I guess, I feel embarrassed. When I reread some parts of World's Apart , I just feel so humiliated. I see it's ugly flaws, it's terrible cliche plot device or it's horrible character development. Then, I get so mad by it.  I mean, I'm angry because I don't want to disappoint my characters. There are always so beautiful.  I love all of them and I want their s...

I just finished reading The Hunger Games Trilogy and damn, it really messed me up. I mean, it's been a week since I finished it and yet, it is still lingering in my mind until now. This is why I say books are powerful. Words are powerful. The trilogy literally entered my insides, shook it up real bad and left. So now, I'm left wondering and just pondering. All I can think about is Katniss or Peeta. Personally, I love the first two books of the trilogy but I did not like the last book at all (Mockingjay). I didn't really like how it ended. So yea. SPOILERS here, I didn't like how in the third book, Katniss (the main character) just somehow went slightly insane. She lost her spirit for fighting back.  That was the main problem to me. How can she just give up? Or rather go insane-ish?  I know that she only human but still, she had so many loved ones around her. She had a support system. Why didn't she use them?   [sighs] That is why Uglies series fr...

Currently, I am doing the nanowrimo thing. And omg, it has taken over my life. Right now, all I can think about is my writing. I'm obsessed. Thank god, the holidays have started...or else. I seriously wonder how I will manage school. It's hard to pay attention in class when your mind is somewhere else. Thankfully, the examination is over so the paces of the class were moving very slowly. Even the lecturers were in a holiday mood. No one really wanted to learn or to lecture. Everyone wanted a holiday. I, too, was in holiday mood or rather writing mood. Just this week alone, I skipped about 6 classes (Accounting, General Paper and Economics) so that I can rush home and start typing away my story. I am just not in the mood for studying. Even if I went to class, I will simply dare dream about my novel, ignoring everything and everyone. My word count currently is about 29000. Well, at least, I passed the half way mark. To be honest, I'm not sure if I can...

Well, what could ever go wrong? Life recently is fun & to make it merrier, I just saw all my good friends lately. So what is the matter with me? Life is getting better but I don't seem to get better. When I thought things couldn't get worse, it had to...Man, I really don't have good luck. Well, currently I have a stack homework to do, a full timetable that doesn't even allow me to breathe and a bunch of activities to do. I'm so stressed!! I have never been so stressed in my life. Wow...life really is BUSY!! To be truthful...I hate myself right now. I feel so incapable. I mean, I am NOT the only human in the world who is busy & stressed. There many others and they seem to be fine so...why do I feel like I might drop dead anytime soon?? There are times when I actually thought that my heart would just stop beating and I would just die. And so...to relax myself, I made a cup of tea and began writing a story. Yea, I just sat down & wrote. The story that I wro...