The Tales of Carmensakura

I must admit that travelling isn't exactly my priority in life. But once in a while, my wanderlust hit me and I go travelling.  I still remember the days when I was in Alevels and all I wanted to do at that moment was to take a train to nowhere. In the sense of traveling, that hasn't changed. I enjoy just setting out and going somewhere. Where? I don't really know or care sometimes. But it would be good if the place is foreign. As in, a culture or a land I know pretty much nothing about. Anyway, my wanderlust hit me and I ended up in Hanoi.  Honestly, I fell in love with that charming city.  I love the hustle and bustle. The constant stream of people and noises. The narrow streets.  Maybe it's because I was born and bred in the city. But I have always enjoyed the city and its busy streets. There's a pulse about cities. And every city's pulse is different. And what makes a city alive is always its people.  Same earth. Dif...

I just been thinking alot. My training is going to end soon. And so I am going back to my home department next week. Soon. It worries me. But at the same time, I am curious to know. Hopefully it would be good. And that's all I can say. So yea!

Well, today I turned 23 year old. It's kinda surreal. Simply because I don't feel older. I don't feel the years. I just feel like me. And that's all. But this year, there isn't really a birthday celebration. I'm completely okay with that. I'm not the type to care about one anyway. However, whenever people messaged me or called me to wish me birthday, I do truly feel touched. Because it means they care and think of me. So thank you. I truly do have great friends and family. 

My classmates and I are going to a career fair tomorrow. We aren't graduates yet but it's obvious that we are all being early about career because we know the economy isn't doing so good right now. We all have our fears. We all have our worries. And it's all valid. But it's good that we are doing something about it. Because doing something is better than doing nothing and being worried about it. Because sometimes worrying is tiring and it gets you nowhere. So yea~!

I was on the bus today and as the bus passes by the places, I noticed all these changes in my city. New buildings, constructions and new roads. I haven't lived very long and yet so much changes has already happened.  Children or babies who are born much later will never even know that the city has changed because when they were born, the city has already changed. I don't know why but I found this mind blowing. In the past, no one foresaw any of these changes. And now, this changes are happening. It only goes to show that the city and life is everchanging. Change will continue to occur. It only goes to show, I would never really know the future. I wouldn't be able to foresee what I will do in the future. My future might be out of my expectations. It might be completely crazy and awesome. It might be completely different from what I am thinking currently. And I like that thought. It only goes to show that the future is unpredictable. And it coul...

I know it may be surprising but I actually love weddings. People who are old friends with me assume that I'm not a wedding sort of person because I'm so tomboy-ish but actually, I have always love weddings because I'm a sentimental sort of person. I have actually imagined and planned my own wedding in my head multiple times in my life just for fun because it just looks so beautiful. I attended a distant relative wedding the other day. They followed the more chinese custom sort of wedding. Personally, I am not a fan of the way weddings are done in my culture.  It's not because I dislike my culture. But because I don't really value the same thing my culture does in weddings. Personally, I wouldn't want to have a tea ceremony. According to the chinese culture, this is a way of the elders in your family to show their blessings and it's also a way that the bride and groom show respect to their elders. I have no problem with respect. But for me, I beli...

December. Yup. It's that time for that time of the year again.  Time for what? Time to reflect on all that has happened in this year. To be honest, this has been one of the best years in my life. So many of dreams came true one by one in this year alone. Travelling overseas Owning an Iphone Getting together with someone Getting over a long time self esteem issue Those just a few of the good things that happened this year. Truly, I have never been so happy.  Happy because my life is slowly turning out to be what I want it to be. Happy because I can finally look at my life and go, this is my life and this is exactly how I like it. For the longest time, I always had expectations of how my life would turn out. And I was always so scared that I would screw up my own life. It is only recently that I let go all of that fear.  And now slowly, my life is just falling into place, one by one. I guess getting rid of expectations is the first step. To a...

University started. And so, just like that, my life is in full swing again. Starting to study again after a long break is a little tough. Because you are totally out of shape and out of the groove. And the only way to get into shape and in the groove is to forcefully keep studying and forcing yourself to focus. Eventually, you will get into that groove. But for now, I can say that I'm not really into the studying mood yet but yet, I force myself to study because I have to. Anyway, the thought of my career have entered my mind quite a few times. So I thought hard about what I wanted to do after I want. At first, I was afraid. What do I do? What can I do? What am I good at? What do I want? So many questions. No answers.  But then the more I went further into what my career should be, the more I realize one thing. I can literally do whatever I want. The world is my stage and I'll play it as much and as hard as I can. And just like that, I stopped worrying....