The Tales of Carmensakura

I won't lie. There are days where I miss them immensely.  Who do I miss? A group of high school friends that accepted me for who I am, no matter how broken I was. I miss this particular group immensely because the group is now in pieces.  We were no where as close as what we were in the past. We may talk. Or some of us don't even talk. But it's not the same. What used to be close companionship was replaced by misunderstanding. And then, that was replaced by us simply moving on with our lives. And it makes me sad. I regret not appreciating those moments more. I regret taking them for granted. I regret ever hurting them. I mean, I understand and accept that this is the situation. But that doesn't mean I don't miss them. Because I do. And sometimes, I wish, so much, that we could return to those moments. However, as much as the group is in pieces, it doesn't mean that it will be in pieces forever. It can be f...

Dear me, Thank you for everything. Just bear with me for a little while longer. Sorry for being an idiot. Sorry for breaking down so easily. Sorry for breaking my promises. Sorry for not shining to my fullest potential. Sorry for doubting myself. Sorry for not trusting myself. Sorry for not believing. But I won't let all this happen ever again. Thank you for being by my side, believing and trusting me when everything seem so wrong. Thank you for hanging on. I will keep on learning and keep an open mind. I won't let anyone distract me. I won't let anyone take away my dignity. I won't hesitate anymore. I will shine now and today. I will believe. I will remember that you are by my side and that I'm not alone. I will remember that we can do anything if we just believe. I will never give up. Thank you for just believing in me. I won't disappoint you anymore. I won't let those dreams slip away. I won't let anyone make me feel that I'm worthless....

Forgive me. I'm sorry if I unintenionally hurt anyone's feelings. I really don't mean it. You see, I have certain rules for myself and unfortunately, I always thought other people also follow the same rules. Therefore, when you broke those rules and I felt as if you were such an idiot. True, I shouldn't have judge you by my own rules. However, I am so tired. I am so tired of caring about other feelings and hiding mine. Therefore, I let it go. True, maybe I should have let it go more nicely and politely. But unfortunately, I am brutally honest on these sort of things. And honestly, sometimes, I'm too tired to care about your feelings. So I am sorry. For so long, I've been taking care of people's emotion that I just got tired. Let's take this as a lesson. There's something for us all to learn in this. HUMILITY - a lesson that god always wanted me to learn and it's time I learnt. As for you, you need to be ROUGH and TOUGH! So, shall we learn life...