The Tales of Carmensakura

Well, what could ever go wrong? Life recently is fun & to make it merrier, I just saw all my good friends lately. So what is the matter with me? Life is getting better but I don't seem to get better. When I thought things couldn't get worse, it had to...Man, I really don't have good luck. Well, currently I have a stack homework to do, a full timetable that doesn't even allow me to breathe and a bunch of activities to do. I'm so stressed!! I have never been so stressed in my life. Wow...life really is BUSY!! To be truthful...I hate myself right now. I feel so incapable. I mean, I am NOT the only human in the world who is busy & stressed. There many others and they seem to be fine so...why do I feel like I might drop dead anytime soon?? There are times when I actually thought that my heart would just stop beating and I would just die. And so...to relax myself, I made a cup of tea and began writing a story. Yea, I just sat down & wrote. The story that I wro...

Well, I'm doing my best to stop hating a person. So I talked to her, I tried to be her friend again. Somehow, our conversation goes crazy. Why does she makes herself so hateable? And when we talk, she just reminds me over & over again how much I hate her. Doesn't she knows that she hurts people feelings? (I'm not the only one who hates her) Everyone that knows her quite well, hates her. Doesn't she know that she is inconsiderate? Have she forgotten the times she made me cry? So...our conversation went crazy. She began talking about crap stuff that I really don't care but I managed to still smile & act as if I am paying attention. Then, it became a heated arguement. She called me names that she knew I didn't like. Then, she mocked everything I liked. She made me sound so stupid. Finally, I snapped & shouted "Guess what, I don't care anymore." And from that moment, it seems all my hatred dissappeared. I finally realised that I was being s...

Alas, I finally understand why I have been so angry. Last week, I was so pissed but yet happy in an odd way. How can hatred & love mix together? Well, lets juz say that love & hate can be mixed. Last week was a terrible week. I was tired & angry. I'm tired because of homework and I'm angry because.... Erm, I'll tell you later. Just read on. Hatred My rival, *Rena, somehow pissed me off. I hate her so much!! Shouldn't I be happy for people who want to improve themselves and help others?? Then, why do I feel angrier? Let me tell you something about Rena. She's the kind of selfish person who only cares about herself & she always tease people. She never cares for other people feelings. In short, she's just a terrible friend. So...when I heard that she is kind. I couldn't believe my ears. A person like her, helping? That's impossible. And, when I heard she is in the same group with me for a project. That pissed me even more!! Gosh, what have I...

So, I saw both my close friends playing the piano. They looked so graceful & happy. And the music that was played was quite lovely. (It wasn't exactly perfect but it was good.) Since I grew up in a music loving family, music is something I naturally liked. Well, my father especially love classical music and he made sure my sister & I loved classical music. However, my mother likes rock & roll...songs that she can sing to. Therefore my family loves music alot, even so, not a single soul in my family plays a music instrument. Most people would sent their children to piano classes but my parents didn't. They just felt that if we wanted to learn something, we would ask for it. So my parents never forced to do anything we hated...(excluding school, homework, chores & being polite) Well, I never liked the piano. Some people will see the piano & gawk at it but even at a tender age, I didn't really care much for the piano. One of my cousins played the piano ...

Ok, this just hasn't been the best week. *sigh* I guess 2009 is not exactly really awesome. I've been sick & things that I want to do has to be postponed to next year due to some problems. In addition, my homework is really pilling up!! Aaarrgghhh....I really hate homeworks!! Why must teachers give us so much homework? I'm fine with homeworks...but stacks of them is overdose. I think I'm gonna die from all this homework. Looks, like it is time for me to do my homework. Seriously, I don't normally look so happy doing my homework. Nobody looks or remote feels happy doing their homework, am I right? Yes, I know I am just complaining all about homework...but seriously, I feel so lazy. I feel like throwing all my homework in the trash can & act as if they don't exist. I know that I can't do that but I am so tempted. This hasn't really been my week... *sighs* *evil smirk* hehehe...maybe I can turn my homework into paper planes. Yay!! Imagine all the p...

Do you like family reunion dinners? I used to hate reunion dinners because my aunts & uncle would always ask questions, trying to know me more. And to make it worse, my mum used to dress me up in a dress that is filled with laces & ribbons, she would also make me wear a black shoe with white laced socks...oh yeah...*shievers* Thank god, she no longer does that. Not only that, this kind of reunions are always SO BORING & LONG!! But recently, I realized something. Finally, I realize that reunion dinners had a purpose. I realized that my relatives bonded with each other. They were all talking, trying to catch up with each other lives. Yea, how could I be so damn stupid to NOT realise this. It was only recently I noticed it. Eventhough, I finally knew the purpose of a family reunion dinner but I still thought it was a little boring. In addition, my aunts made me babysit my 5 year old throwing tantrum cousin sister & my 9 year old spoiled brat cousin brother. However, I am n...

Everyone around me, begin to fasten their pace, I am the only idiot who stumbles & falls, Their pace were too fast for me, I couldn't really catch up, I tried my best to fasten my steps, Forcing my legs to continue on no matter what. As time passed, I realize I have fallen so far behind, The people in front of me, Seemed like a distant shadow, My friends saw me in this horrid state, They ushered me on, Cheering me, I smiled weakly at them, Asking them to carry on, It is not that I didn't want them to wait for me, But how could I be so selfish, To strip them the chance to win this race, They look at me with doubt, Unwilling to leave, I insisted for them to leave. When everyone left, And I was alone, For a brief moment, I kneeled on the ground quietly, Catching my breath, Streching my legs, I knew I must continue this race, The voice in my head, Told me to carry on and to hold on, I knew I must carry on. I got up, Hastening my steps, Trying to just catch up, Even though I am ...