The Tales of Carmensakura

I was just thinking travelling lately because it as something that I did recently I guess. People often said that travelling broadens your mind. I don't quite agree with this sentence. Because for me, travelling doesn't broaden my mind. If anything, it only teaches me what kind of person I am. When you travel to a foreign country, because it's foreign, there will be stress. So you definitely learn more about yourself.  For me, I am the type of traveler who learns more about themselves. Like for me, I realise that I'm not into going to a million places at once.  And I'm not into tours. But I will do things that I wanna do. Most of all, I like the experience to be as authentic as possible. So I would like to stay in a neighbourhood.  I'm more about exploring what makes the city ticks. But I guess it also depends on the city. In the past, I went to Osaka, Japan. It was completely foreign. People spoke a different language. It was obvious t...

I been back from London for a week now. And yes, I was jet-lag. Gosh, it was horrible. My jet-lag brought out my anxieties in me and for a few days, I felt horrid. I couldn't sleep properly, I couldn't eat properly and all I want to do was cry because I was just so anxious. But as the days go by, I recovered and now I am alright again. In fact, I am feeling relatively optimistic and happy actually. I think the London trip was something that I needed. I needed to see how a different part of the world looked like. And oddly enough, London didn't feel foreign to me. If anything, it felt like home. Odd, isn't it? But now that I'm back, I feel that London has allowed my imagination to returned. And my optimism for life too. I wouldn't say I don't worry about money anymore. Because I do. But I feel less stressed now. I feel like things are gonna get better. Like there's a better hope. Like I will achieve something. That although...

So I went to London for my graduation. I am actually still there. Yup, I'm still in London as I type this blog post out. To be honest, London doesn't feel like a foreign city to me. If anything, it feels like I am coming home. The reason for that is because I grew up in a UK colonised country. There's alot of UK history in my country. Most of all, my primary and secondary schools were missionary schools founded by UK kind people. I even came from a girl school. So yay to girl power. So yes, it's crazy actually. I am thousands of miles away from "home" (my country of origin) and yet, I do not feel foreign here. If anything, I blend in. I guess this shows that I am a very cosmopolitan person. Other than that, when it comes to travelling, I realise that I am a different sort of traveller. I really dislike cramping alot of things in one itinerary. I enjoy taking my time and going from place to place that interests me. Hence, tours are definit...

My mind. It will forever be my gift and my curse. My gift Because it allows me to think To have clarity To create To discuss To feel To be me. But it's my curse Because it makes my head spin It can make me sick It can make me want to scream It can make me want to drop everything and run And this will forever for me to bear. I always assumed that it would get better as I grew older. And although it did get slightly better, it is not because I was older. It's just that as you grow older, you learn to handle it better. You learn to cope and it's something you'll have to keep learning Because triggers will continue to change So coping mechanisms always has to evolve too. And this is just my life. And I will continue to do my best. 

My family recently are planning a trip to the UK.  It's gonna be expensive. And it's been a huge headache lately. We haven't planned. But planning with my parents gives me a headache and it annoys me. As for financially, it hurts me to watch a year of savings go down the drain for one trip. This is why travel will not be a priority for now. Don't get me wrong. I do enjoy travelling. Does it broaden my mind? Yes it does. But I don't like the idea of saving every penny and then spending it all on a few days. No. Not my idea of fun. If anything, it feels like a heartbreak. This is why travel to me is a luxury for now. I am not saying I don't want to travel. No. I am saying I prioritise other things for now. I want to be able to increase my earning power more first. I want to focus on my career and other aspects of my life.  Because I want to be able to travel with ease. I don't want to save each penny and spend it with cauti...

Recently, I joined this organisation where I help to write anime reviewing articles. They claim to be this cool start up where hopefully this is something we can do for a living. Honestly, would I like that sort of living? I’m not sure but I thought to myself, since I like anime, it’s something I could try. I am slightly beginning to feel that this organisation and I aren’t going to work out. Why do I say that? Well, my writing is not for hire. I do not write in order to please people. Hence, I do not give a damn if my style isn’t “accurate” or “formal”. When I write, I write for myself first. I write to express myself. The reason why I write is because I have a lot on my mind. Writing is something very sacred to me. So don’t blame me if I hold on tight to it and act defensive about it. You have to understand that when I was younger, I felt that I shouldn’t write because I wasn’t an author. And even if I wrote, I was no one. I was nothing. I understand that my writin...

I absolutely adore this movie. I love everything about it. Even the heartbreaking ending that made me tear up in the cinema. I love La La Land for bringing back the charming classic hollywood with a musical twist.  I love how the characters break out in songs and dances every once in a while. I even love the way the film was directed. To portray how Hollywood was magical and how the characters were wrapped up in their own dreams, it felt both electric and surreal.  I also love how the two main characters stated that they wouldn't fall in love with each other and yet, cliche as it is, they fell in love with each other. But what I wanted to talk about is Mia and Seb's relationship. How it's was beautifully done How when they fell in love, they were both happy and delirious in their own world. And then, life came along. He felt obliged to get a "steady" job. But she just wanted to be happy and to achieve his dream. Because of that, they fought....