Where do I stand now?
I used to know myself and what I wanted...but not anymore.
When I look back into the past, things seemed so nice and beautiful. In the past, I knew myself and my dreams. Yet, I still know how to have fun and go wild.
Now, I don't even know who I am anymore.
As my reread my life, I realise how much I've lost and achieved. I realise how much I have changed and how things have changed.
But as I stand here today...I've lost myself. Not only that, I've been a weak moron who breaks down every moment.
...What do I do now?
I've lost some old buddies and gained some new friends.
Well, let's just say things are different now.
Currently, I've been feeling like crap so I created a character from this turmoil I have. I write as a way to calm myself down.
She's borned from my crap and she'll die for absolutely nothing. A meaningless death.
Her name is Lunette Anya Lux. My princess of despair.
As I create her, I realise that she is so much stronger than me. So beautiful and independent. She doesn't complain if life gives her crap, she just takes it with her head held high.
Suddenly, I was so jealous of her. How pathetic, I'm jealous of my own creation.
Currently, I've just been feeling more & more crappy. I guess I need a break...a break from everything.
I just hope things will get better or rather I will begin to feel better again.
Yea, this has been a crappy post...but this is how I've been feeling so I apologise for the lame post.
When I look back into the past, things seemed so nice and beautiful. In the past, I knew myself and my dreams. Yet, I still know how to have fun and go wild.
Now, I don't even know who I am anymore.
As my reread my life, I realise how much I've lost and achieved. I realise how much I have changed and how things have changed.
But as I stand here today...I've lost myself. Not only that, I've been a weak moron who breaks down every moment.
...What do I do now?
I've lost some old buddies and gained some new friends.
Well, let's just say things are different now.
Currently, I've been feeling like crap so I created a character from this turmoil I have. I write as a way to calm myself down.
She's borned from my crap and she'll die for absolutely nothing. A meaningless death.
Her name is Lunette Anya Lux. My princess of despair.
As I create her, I realise that she is so much stronger than me. So beautiful and independent. She doesn't complain if life gives her crap, she just takes it with her head held high.
Suddenly, I was so jealous of her. How pathetic, I'm jealous of my own creation.
Currently, I've just been feeling more & more crappy. I guess I need a break...a break from everything.
I just hope things will get better or rather I will begin to feel better again.
Yea, this has been a crappy post...but this is how I've been feeling so I apologise for the lame post.
Comments
Their life also ~~
Just enjoy your life and exprience.
^_^
You said :"
I've lost some old buddies and gained some new friends.
".
haha, i know will miss somethings but meet new things also your journey.
Don't worry ~~
Don't run away from a place that people cannot find you !!
That is no use ....
Like people think want to jump for KLCC ... die like that ...
Problem come then need patient , slove it and exchange de problem to happy and enjoy to slove it.
Same like me ~~
^_^