Ambivalence

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conflicting emotions. Yea, that's what I'm feeling right now.

My emotions are confusing me. I'm feeling happy, angry, sad and many other in a single moment. So in a way, I don't really know what I'm feeling.

I hate it when my emotions are all mixed up.

sigh.

Anyway, since my emotions are overwhelming right now, my mind decided to turn off my emotions.

So it's weird. I know my emotions are everywhere however, I feel numbed. I can't feel it. It's so overwhelming that it numbs my mind.

I feel like I'm another person watching over me.

This is a weird post, I know. I am wondering why I am writing this post too.

I'm just gonna go stare at something until this emotions go away.


Comments

Happy "Sam" said…
Yeah ~

DOn't worry be happy !~
I am here for you ~~
Angry give to me !!
Sadness give to me !!

Happy for yourself ~~
hehe !!!

Then i take all the sad and angry make bird ~

That call angry bird !!
haha ~

+u+u !
September 15, 2011 at 7:01 AM
Rachael Lum said…
Conflicting emotions happen. And yea, it does get confusing and irritating at times, but maybe you could use these feelings to your advantage- turn them into something that can motivate you to reach your goal.

On another note, miss you! :)
September 15, 2011 at 8:18 AM
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