Childhood friend again. lol. I should just stop talking about this. sighs.

Ever since I wrote Coeur Noir, I felt so much better regarding my "childhood" friend. Everything I wanted to say and needed to say was in that story.
I felt liberated and finally, I could move on.

And for a while, I was moving on. I was doing well. And I was happy.

Then,

she posted her twitter account on facebook. Something that she never does because her twitter account is locked. So, it's pointless to post it on facebook because you can't see a thing.

It's like she wanted the world to know that she locked her twitter account and that she also wants me to know that I am locked out even though, in the past, I was not.

What? Does she want me to call her up or text her to ask her why she blocked me on twitter?
Nope. Not gonna do that. 

I wrote Coeur Noir. So if you want a reply, read that.

And today,

her name appeared on one of my communication chat as recommended friends to add.

I laughed out, HAHA. NO. JUST NO.
And deleted that notification.

Maybe, I'm reading too much into this. Or not. I don't know.

But I am moving on slowly. 
I no longer feel mad. Or sad. Or guilty.

And all this will soon just be a faint painful memory.

As for now, I guess, I am still talking about this because I still need to get it out of my system. I guess, I still feel like the injured party.

But time will move and things will get better.

So enjoy a song that says everything that I feel right now, anyway.




Yo, this one right here
Is for all the drop out-of-schoolers
The future cougars
The Mary Jane abusers
The ones that chose to be losers
For all the misfit kids and the total outcasts
MKTO, This one's for you
Role models
We are the ones
The ones you left behind
Don't tell us how
Tell us how to live our lives
Ten million strong
We're breaking all the rules
Thank you for nothing
Cause there's nothing left to lose
Thank you for feeding us years of lies
Thank you for the wars you left us to fight
Thank you for the world you ruined overnight
But we'll be fine
Yeah we'll be fine
Thank you for the world you broke
Like yolk and it ain't no joke
So cold and there ain't no coat
Just me my friends my folks and
We gonna do what we like
So raise that bird up high
And when they ask you why
Just stand there laugh and smile
We are the ones
The ones you left behind
Don't tell us how
Tell us how to live our lives
Ten million strong
We're breaking all the rules
Thank you for nothing
Cause there's nothing left to lose
Na na na na
Na na na na na na
Na na na na
Na na na na na na
Thank you for the times you said don't make a sound
Thanks for the ropes you used to hold us down
Cause when I break through I'ma use them to reach the clouds
We ain't comin' down
We ain't comin' down
Look Ma I finally made it
This world is too damn jaded
My life is just like Vegas
Go big go home get faded
Been a prob since '92
Can't shut me down curfew
And them girls I'll take a few
Do what I wanna do
We are the ones
The ones you left behind
Don't tell us how
Tell us how to live our lives
Ten million strong
We're breaking all the rules
Thank you for nothing
Cause there's nothing left to lose
Na na na na
Na na na na na na
Na na na na
Na na na na na na
Thank you from the bottom of my heart
From head to toe from the soul you ripped apart
I say thank you
I say thank you
Yeah∦ Oh∦ thank you
Thank you, thank you Yeah, Yeah∦.
We are the ones
The ones you left behind
Don't tell us how
Tell us how to live our lives
Ten million strong
We're breaking all the rules
Thank you for nothing
Cause there's nothing left to lose
We are the ones
The ones you left behind
Don't tell us how
Tell us how to live our lives
Ten million strong
We're breaking all the rules
Thank you for nothing
Cause there's nothing left to lose
Yo if you don't like what they tell you to do
Don't do it
If you don't want to be who they want you to be
Screw it
It's your world
It's your life
And they ruined it
Role models
Tune in
Turn up
Drop out