I am greedy.

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Overwhelmed. Stressed. Tired. Angry. Frustrated. Isolated. Alone.

Just a few words to describe how I feel right now.

Why?

Well, I seemed to be surrounded by work and it's annoying that I am not on top of it. So yea. I do have some backlog work or that I can't do some tutorials due to my inability to solve them.

And that annoys me.

Trying to balance work and a social life isn't easy one damn bit. 

Events clashing, money leaving my pocket, undone work.

It's like everything is spinning out of control and it's so confusing.

And it sucks.

Life would have been so much more simpler if I wasn't so greedy.

But I am greedy and I want it all.

And I will be damned if I don't try my best.

So yea.

By the way, lately, I miss my pre-university days because atleast then, I had a group of dependent awesome friends.

Now, in university, everyone is just an acquaintance. They are nice but I am not particularly close to anyone and I miss that. I feel distant and alone. The worse is when I feel bad and moody and I realize that I have no one to turn to except the internet.

Sounds a little pathetic? Oh well, I feel that way sometimes.

But I would have to deal with it. Yup. I will have to just live on.

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Astraea Luke Cletus said…
I'm trying to do the same as u too. gambahteh
October 25, 2013 at 7:28 AM
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