What a life.

Honestly, when I turned 21, I must admit that I felt a little scared and unsure.

I don't know why but when I turned 21, I didn't feel 21.
What I mean is, I don't quite feel like an adult.

I don't feel like I am in complete control of my life.
And I certainly feel like maybe, I am being left out.

I see everyone around me who turned 21 and they all seem so 21.
They have nice parties.
They wear pretty dresses.
They walk around like they are grown up.

And then, you have me.

But as time passes by, I don't feel like that anymore.

I mean, yes, I may not wear pretty dresses or whatever.
But I am okay with that now.

In the past, I felt all these pressure. I felt like I was missing out.
But not anymore.

So now, I just worry about what I am doing.

And honestly, I am very happy with the life I lead.
In fact, I consider myself very lucky.

I am studying what I like.
I like the feeling of constantly learning.
And yes, even though the university work load is a little insane and overwhelming,
I must admit that I enjoy learning this stuff.
I have some pretty awesome classmates that I truly have fun with when I do see them in university.

It's good.

And I feel like life can't get any better than this.

And honestly, I want this moment to last forever.

But I know life.

This moment will not last forever.

One day, it will come to an end too.

And so, I really have to appreciate right now.

I don't want to regret not appreciating this good moments.