Music

Music conveys a lot.

And for me, there's often a few songs that I relate to or managed to say a situation that I went through before really well.

I just found a song that managed to say a situation that I felt before really well. A song that I really connected to on a spiritual level.
I haven't found a song that ever talked about a situation like this before so this song is the first and it suits it really well too.



I embedded the video here. However, do ignore the video because it is a little weird. Even I can't watch it. I just listen to the music but ignore the video completely.

I am going to paste the translation lyrics here.

The seasons die out, one after another; the voice of death becomes wind
A man not susceptible to the charms of the city looks up at the moon and notices how unrefined it all is.

In a life stuck in mud, the rain itself tastes of alcohol
With eyes filled with apathy as they wander the city, I’m an innocent man acting suspiciously at the station.
In order to uphold the unsteady fact that I'm me, it's like my half-transparent shadow is has come to life.
If I were to sing in the rain, would the clouds part? My life is all dried up in the midst of this bustling summer.

Dear My Loathsome Past, to you I offer this poem of farewell!
I have to cast away the remains of these days that can't get any worse, these most terrible dreams, even if it kills me.
For in the next life, a flower will bloom to tell you a poem of transition;
A song filled with suffering, of which to grieve and moan, but never to die out even if it is starved of sunlight.

Tomorrows dies out, one after another even if you hurry, you'll miss them as they become the past,
But to we who hurry through life, our flames are fickle, and we're always adding meaning after the fact.
Even if your insecure self despise you, wondering if you’re you.
When you sing, the darkness may be dispelled? This is just a life given by a rotten dream.

Dear My Loathsome Past, to you I offer this poem of farewell!
I have to cast away the remains of these days that can't get any worse, these most terrible dreams, even if it kills me.
For in the next life, a flower will bloom to tell you a poem of transition;
A song filled with suffering, of which to grieve and moan, but never to die out even if it is starved of sunlight.

With a tired face, limping along; squinting at the reflected sunset;
We spend some time wondering if we should go or head on back. I'm sure we'll face hardship; but after the slightest hesitation, we straighten up and head onward.
That's right, we have to go! Even with nothing, we have to go on living!
After all, our lives were just picked up along the way we'll leave them here as we proceed, what little they are.

Dear The Long Gone Past I Reflect Upon, to you I offer this poem of nostalgia;
If I think of days that couldn't get any worse, those most terrible dreams, you seem so far away!
Our flowers will wilt one day, and return to the circle of rebirth;
A song filled with suffering, of which to grieve and moan, but never to die out even if it is starved of sunlight.

The seasons revive, one after another.

I relate to this song because like this person, I did have a past that I didn't quite enjoy.
Or rather, I didn't quite like my past self at times because of the actions she took or the thoughts she had.
But to say I hate her is wrong.

I know some people might think that this song is about a person hating his past self but I disagree.
If anything, I think this song is about a person saying goodbye to his past self.
He is saying farewell to his past.

Like this song, my past self was dark.
I had very bad days and terrible moments.
In the past, I thought this moments would last forever.
But in the end, it didn't.
And I am better now.

So in a way, this song also makes me feel like saying farewell to my ugly past.
(I mean, I said farewell a long time ago but this song is bringing up these farewell feelings in me)

It's not that I am forgetting my past.
Not at all.
I am just bidding it farewell.
I am just allowing myself to move on.

This is a song about moving forward.
And it's so beautifully done.
The lyrics and the vocals too.