Patience or rather impatience.

I'm not gonna lie. Patience is something that I have always struggled with. 

I don't do well with waiting.

But as time has passes, I learnt that good things come to those who wait.
I do admit though, waiting is probably one of the hardest things to do.

Like currently, I am working in a job.

I am not sure if this is the job I want.
But then again, I am not sure what is it I want.

I know I should be patient. I should give myself time. Give the job time. 
Then slowly figure it out. Figure what I want. Figure out if this job gives me that.

However, I am also so afraid of wasting time.
Wasting time in a job that I don't want at the end of the day.
I hate wasting time.

I want to start right.
But then again, what is starting right?

I know I am just being paranoid.
But hey.
This is how I feel.

I know I need to deal with it.

And I will. 

So yea.