Talk

2018 started.

And to be honest, since it's the beginning of the year and I'm determined to make it a good one, things feel good. I started reading again, exercising and even cooked a bit. Even attended an academic economic talk. So all in all, I feel like I'm starting out the year right.

That made me feel rather good.  

But then my boss called me to speak to me.

And she told me that she feels that I'm struggling. I guess I don't like this statement. The reason for this is because I don't want to give her a bad impression and it feels like she does.

I feel that I must change that. So I now, I tell myself, I got to do better at my work. I got to show her that I'm good for this. I got to be the best that I can be. So yea, in a way, I do feel motivated.

I must admit that I am lucky to have a good boss. She actually talks to me because she didn't want me to be frustrated or feel alienated since I sit far away from the team and I am the newest member there with the least skill set. So yea.

But honestly, I don't feel frustrated or alienated. I do enjoy what I do and I'm surprised by that. I honestly look forward to more things and work. I know I have a lot more to learn and I accept that.

But I'm going to do my best. 

So yea.

Let's do this!