The Tales of Carmensakura

I haven't updated my blog recently. Sorry for that. I been a little tired lately so it makes me lazy to blog. haha. Terrible reason, I know. But it's the truth. Anyhow, my bosses recently had a talk with me. The first talk a few weeks back was, she thinks I was doing well and coping well. I like that. That's good.  The second talk, she's glad that I have a good attitude but she wishes that I speak up more. The third talk, she feels I'm ready for some more harder work, she still wishes that I speak up more or ask more questions when I need help. To be honest, I can't tell if it's good or bad. I do feel like shit sometimes because I feel like I could be better or asked better questions. But hey, we are humans. So I accept that I don't know alot. And I just accept that I'm here to learn so learn I shall.  To be honest, the more I work, the more I realise, wow, I don't know anything. It's a little crazy. I feel incompeten...

I sat in a cafe with my drink in hand, reading a book that my younger self would have enjoyed. It's those usual chick flick sort of books.  The girl who lives in a shit apartment with an okay job. But she's glad anyway because she is now in the city and in a way, she feels like she has arrived.   When I was 10 years younger, reading these books only made me feel like, wow, what an exciting life. Yes, she hasn't arrived yet. But atleast she's on the way to where she wants to be. I wished I was her. I wished my life has begun.  Now, 10 years forward. I still read these kind of books and have a good laugh. 10 years forward, and I can relate to these characters. Heck, I'm the same age as the characters or even older.  To be honest, if you look at it, not much has really changed with my life. I still live in the same house. I still live in the same city. Only one thing has really changed. I have started on the journey on my life. I am buildi...