Green Lights

"All I see is Green Lights. All I spit is real life. Bet you don't know what that's like. - NF"

I was just thinking about where I am and my life. And this song by NF just plays in my head and honestly, that's how I feel. 

 

I just got started with my journey with life. I know that I been alive for 25 years now but it only truly felt like it started about a year back. 

And I did enjoy being an adult because although it was tiring and confusing, I like the idea of being able to do what you want. To be able to sit in the front seat with your hands on the steering wheel. To be the one in charge of your life. 

I admit that I was confused, scared and filled with pride. I wanted everything and yet I was scared of everything. I was impatient. I wanted the world and yet, I didn't want to put in the effort at first because I was afraid of failure. And for a moment, I was worried that if I chose a path, I had to be committed to it and what if that path sucked. 

So many thoughts crossed my mind. Took me a while to figure out alot of things. Even now, I'm not finished figuring things out.

I get that life has a long road for me ahead. Good thing is, I can take my time to figure things out.

Sometimes I must admit that my pride, my envy and my impatience get the better of me. 

I have to learn calm myself down. To remind myself that all good things take time. That I'm working towards what I want.

That sometimes, grinding every day isn't flashy. And that's okay.

As long as you know what you're doing and you keep moving forward.

As I grow, the more I realise that life is a little crazy. You can go anywhere. You can do what you want.

And the infinite possibilities drives me crazy because I always want them all. And unfortunately, I'm only one person and I can't do it all. So I have to choose and that's always hard for me. I always procrastinate making the decision but eventually I'll make it anyway.

I guess the hardest part is always living with the opportunity cost. I know, don't look back when you choose. But it's hard for me sometimes. And that's why I'm so fickle sometimes. Despite all that, I have to remind myself, all good things take time.

I admit sometimes I look outwardly and go, hey look at all that pretty things.

But that's not how it works sometimes.

Not all things that shine are gold.

So I have to learn to be more patient. 

I just gotta remind myself what am I doing it all for? What's my purpose?

I guess it always all comes down to that. What's your purpose?

For now, I know my purpose. I know what I want to do. And I'm moving forward each day. I'm happy. I'm looking at the sky. I see the clouds, and one day, I'll be up there.

And I know, one day, I'll get there eventually.

So yes, all I see is Green Lights. Because from where I stand, the sky is the limit and I can have whatever I want.

Question is, are you willing to work for it?

And my answer is, yes. 

Life is all about working hard, having fun and enjoying the journey.

I know this post seems abit messy but hey, it's fresh out of my brain. so yea. hahaha.