2020

Yea, it's been a long time since I updated this blog and I apologise.

Anyway, it's 2020.

When I was a kid, I used to think this was long time into the future. But alas, my maths suck and in reality, it isn't that long.

Honestly, 2019 was a shitty ass year for me.

So I'm really hoping for 2020 to be alot better.

I think with my age catching up. (3 more years to the big 30), I feel pressured.

I feel as if, I'm not enough.
Not rich enough.
Not smart enough.
Not successful enough. 

This pressure feels terrible.

And it was the main reason why I felt so restless in 2019. It was also a huge reason why I ended up doing nothing. Paralyzed by the pressure that overwhelms me.

And that's why I intend to start 2020 better.

January has ended. 

And so far, I think I started off alright.

Not great but it was alot better compared to last year.

To be honest, there's alot of thoughts going in my mind and I just need to figure that out as well.

But atleast I started the year alright. So I'm just going to celebrate that little win! Whee!