The Tales of Carmensakura

So, I saw both my close friends playing the piano. They looked so graceful & happy. And the music that was played was quite lovely. (It wasn't exactly perfect but it was good.) Since I grew up in a music loving family, music is something I naturally liked. Well, my father especially love classical music and he made sure my sister & I loved classical music. However, my mother likes rock & roll...songs that she can sing to. Therefore my family loves music alot, even so, not a single soul in my family plays a music instrument. Most people would sent their children to piano classes but my parents didn't. They just felt that if we wanted to learn something, we would ask for it. So my parents never forced to do anything we hated...(excluding school, homework, chores & being polite) Well, I never liked the piano. Some people will see the piano & gawk at it but even at a tender age, I didn't really care much for the piano. One of my cousins played the piano ...

Ok, this just hasn't been the best week. *sigh* I guess 2009 is not exactly really awesome. I've been sick & things that I want to do has to be postponed to next year due to some problems. In addition, my homework is really pilling up!! Aaarrgghhh....I really hate homeworks!! Why must teachers give us so much homework? I'm fine with homeworks...but stacks of them is overdose. I think I'm gonna die from all this homework. Looks, like it is time for me to do my homework. Seriously, I don't normally look so happy doing my homework. Nobody looks or remote feels happy doing their homework, am I right? Yes, I know I am just complaining all about homework...but seriously, I feel so lazy. I feel like throwing all my homework in the trash can & act as if they don't exist. I know that I can't do that but I am so tempted. This hasn't really been my week... *sighs* *evil smirk* hehehe...maybe I can turn my homework into paper planes. Yay!! Imagine all the p...

Do you like family reunion dinners? I used to hate reunion dinners because my aunts & uncle would always ask questions, trying to know me more. And to make it worse, my mum used to dress me up in a dress that is filled with laces & ribbons, she would also make me wear a black shoe with white laced socks...oh yeah...*shievers* Thank god, she no longer does that. Not only that, this kind of reunions are always SO BORING & LONG!! But recently, I realized something. Finally, I realize that reunion dinners had a purpose. I realized that my relatives bonded with each other. They were all talking, trying to catch up with each other lives. Yea, how could I be so damn stupid to NOT realise this. It was only recently I noticed it. Eventhough, I finally knew the purpose of a family reunion dinner but I still thought it was a little boring. In addition, my aunts made me babysit my 5 year old throwing tantrum cousin sister & my 9 year old spoiled brat cousin brother. However, I am n...

Everyone around me, begin to fasten their pace, I am the only idiot who stumbles & falls, Their pace were too fast for me, I couldn't really catch up, I tried my best to fasten my steps, Forcing my legs to continue on no matter what. As time passed, I realize I have fallen so far behind, The people in front of me, Seemed like a distant shadow, My friends saw me in this horrid state, They ushered me on, Cheering me, I smiled weakly at them, Asking them to carry on, It is not that I didn't want them to wait for me, But how could I be so selfish, To strip them the chance to win this race, They look at me with doubt, Unwilling to leave, I insisted for them to leave. When everyone left, And I was alone, For a brief moment, I kneeled on the ground quietly, Catching my breath, Streching my legs, I knew I must continue this race, The voice in my head, Told me to carry on and to hold on, I knew I must carry on. I got up, Hastening my steps, Trying to just catch up, Even though I am ...

Hmm...I recently got myself a part time job that paid $5 per hour. Yea, I know...that is so damn cheap. But then again, this is a part time job. What do ya expect? Anyways, I worked in a catering company. I never knew that catering was an art. I learnt quite alot of new stuff. I helped served food & stuff like that. I helped cater a birthday party. My job is something like a waitress...(I mean, I have to serve & take orders) For the first time in my life, I realized that jobs like these were so damn boring.(Well, excluding all the customers complains & ruckus) Suddenly, it hit me that people hate their jobs. I really get what they mean. It isn't because of the boss but it is because of the JOB!! I mean, the job was so damn boring that I didn't even last a week in that job. I quit after 5 days!! I mean, I really felt bored... I counted the hours to the end of the day, hoping that time will fly. So...I finally get it. I finally understand why people hate their jobs s...

I could have just be at home, playing with the internet...BUT no, my dad has to drag me into his business trip. Well, atleast I was slightly glad that I could travel~~ Anyways, when we reached our destination, we had to go to a meeting. I was stunned...I mean, don't we even get to rest?! So I went with my dad to the meeting. He kept smiling & said, "Isn't this interesting." I nodded but what I really wanted was a good nap. When I entered the meeting room, I saw so many business looking people. I looked at them...they were all so damn serious. Unlike my dad, they weren't smiling. Everyone in the meeting room suddenly turned their eyes on me. They were examining me. I hated what I read in their eyes, they thought of me as an annoying child. Damn you, I ain't an annoying child. Then a man screamed out, "somebody get this kid out of here!" I was so angry that I wanted to hit him so damn hard!! But before I could do anything my dad gently said, "...

Have you ever wanted something so badly, That you threw everything you had a side, Even if that meant for you to, Break all your promises, Hurt your friends, Forget your family, Have you done that?? And when you thought you achieved it, Life gives you a 360 degree harsh turn, In the end, You achieved nothing, Losing everything you had... Have you ever had this feeling?? Did you ever do this before?? I thought I had this dream in my hands...but it slipped away...so easily & so fast. Now, I am left with nothing...nothing... I really cried hard, last night when I found out that this dream slipped away so easily. I'm not hurt by the rejection...that's not the problem!! But could this dream broke earlier, before I sacrificed so many things?? I sacrificed so many things...so many things! Did you know how much it hurts to break your very own damn promise. I don't break promises...it's against my principles!! But I broke a damn promise for this dream! I hurt both my friends...