The Tales of Carmensakura

Ok, I was just rereading my last post on my blog and I have only one reaction which was WTF... I mean, honestly I was rereading that post and I felt slightly disgusted. Since when did I even cared about bands? Since when did I even cared about a korean boyband? And I sounded like a complete idiotic screaming fangirl. I can't believe I sounded like a fangirl because all this while, I have thought that fangirls are stupid...and believe me, they are. (No offence indended but that's the bloody truth.) But if fangirls didn't exist, then alot of stars would have almost NO fans at all. Even so,I hate squeeling girls...and what's worse is to be stuck in between a crowd of fangirls and that there's no way out. So my policy, RUN when you see a fangirl. I have always all this while loved music but not the bands. I love the song, just not the band. But as I read that last blog post, I felt really stupid & disgusted. And did I write that Hyun Joong is hot? Ok, I feel like a...

Today has been a terrible day because : 1. My Economic group presentation sucked 2. I have to do my moral project. 3. One of my exercise book is missing 4. My maths teacher asked us to pass up work that I haven't done. 5. I have a freaking sorethroat 6. I have a slight headache Today was terrible until...I came home to watch some stuff on youtube & google some random stuff that was on my mind. (Well, the internet always brighten my day.) Well, My day became perfect when I found out that SS501 is coming for their first asia tour on December or January~~!! Yay~!! I'm so going to their concert!!! They're my favourite korean boyband~! Ok, who is SS501? Well, SS501 is a super popular korean boyband. Thanks to the famous Boys Over Flowers korean drama, I also fell in love with this korean band. The SS501 leader, Kim Hyun Joong acted as Yoon Ji Hoo in the Boys Over Flowers drama~! Well, thanks to that drama. I'm currently korean drama high & in love with Kim Hyun Joong...

Yesterday, a "close" friend of mine called. We haven't seen or talked to each other for several months so I was glad she called. And so we talked... Sally asked me if I was going to the christmas party. Obviously, I couldn't go because I need to celebrate christmas with my family. Somehow, Sally exploded and told me things that kinda slapped me in the face. She said that I was a person who doesn't know what I want and that I didn't care about anything. She said that I was becoming a emo and that I can't stand on my own two feet. She said more stuff but I just smiled and I didn't say anything. I didn't feel like arguing with her. Don't label me, please? I'm just, well, ME~! Friends don't do this to each other. Whatever happen to friends forever? Whatever happen to watching each other back? *sigh* Whatever...She still acts like she's ten. I wish she grew up and stop acting so sensitive. But I have a feeling that she won't. I know ...

My dad wants us to move. He wants us to move to my grandparents old house. Actually, I don't want to move there. Heck, my entire family hates that idea. Because my dad says we have to move, we don't really have a choice. They are planning to move in October. We can't really say anything against this because we all know how much my dad spent on renovating that old crappy shit house. That house cost my dad a bomb & it ain't even worth it! Thanks to this crappy house, my dad have debts again. And because this is my former grandparents house, my uncles and grandmother is chasing my dad for their stuff. Well, they all moved out but they still have their crap in that house which one thing I freaking hate. Can you believe they want us to keep their stuff but they don't want to take it? They don't want to ruin their pretty little houses. But my dad got pissed and so, he threw most of the crap stuff out. Yea, he threw their stuff out...not a smart move. So, a big arg...

Last Monday, I had to cook dinner for my family because the caterer thought we didn't want our dinner tonight. There was a HUGE miscommunication. And since, I'm home early...I got the responsibility to make my family dinner. At first, I was shell shocked. I mean, are you kidding me? Me, cook? Are you really serious? My cooking skills do not go beyond microwaved meals, scrambled eggs & boiling canned soup. So this was gonna be a little interesting. But my parents insist I make dinner because they were coming late tonight & they didn't feel like eating out. So forcefully, I took that challenge. I walked around the pantry & found some stuff. Then, I decided to make spagetti for dinner~! Thank god for instructions. I was just following it. I sliced some ham so that I can put in the sauce & make it more delicious~!! Really, thank god for Dolmio spagetti sauces. My mum really love Dolmio spagetti sauce. SO she always buys this stuff in case of emergencies like thi...

Recently, I rewatched another anime which is Death Note. Death Note is a pretty epic anime & I love it. Yea, I know I'm suppose to be studying but I guess this is my anime season. I've been watching anime after anime. But death note is the last in my anime list. Well, death note is about a notebook that can kill people by just writing their name in that notebook. And so, this story begins with a boy named Light Yagami who picks up this death note and use it to cleanse the world by killing criminals. Then, L, a super detective tries to catch him and so a cat and mouse situation began. I'm not recommending this anime to you BUT if you wanna watch it. I'm not gonna stop you. This anime is awesome because of it's mental mindgames. And you're always left wondering who will win the last battle. Anyway, what amazed me is Light Yagami. The perfect son, intelligent student and an example of the elites. I'm so damn jealous of him. He's absolutely perfect! I me...

Clannad After Story gave me a slap in my face. And I found out that I have no reason to be upset or unhappy. Clannad made me realise that I shouldn't be upset instead rejoice about everything I have in life. Not only that, it really motivated me. Look, I was about to give up. At that moment, I believed that winners and losers are borned. And IF you ain't born special, forget it. For a moment, I believed that. UNTIL, I watched Clannad and realise that I do not deserve to be unhappy. Recently, I was feeling upset because I was thinking about the past or comparing myself with those talented people who seem to have it all. And I thought to myself, didn't I used to be one of these talented people?? When I was 12, I was a public speaker, main choral speaker, choir member, pretty damn good chess player, got good school grades and I was happy. Isn't that just the perfect girl? (Well, perfection doesn't exist. So wasn't I almost perfect?) THEN, what happened? Soon, I...