I read on two of my friend's blogs about writing essays in high school. (oh, you know who you are. LOL) And it made me want to write about my own essays in high school. I enjoyed writing so much. It was fun. Creating worlds and characters that didn't exist. It was like walking into a whole different world where you were the god. Everything was your whim and fancy. Creating characters just to kill them off. (I know I'm a cruel person. LOL) Weaving plots together. Creating whole new worlds up. It was just incredible. I loved writing so much. And as a student, there was a lot of essays to write in high school. Honestly, even though my essays were good, my teachers hated them. Why? Because my stories were not happy, clean or filled with moral values. I liked putting death, torture and despair in my stories. My teachers would frown and tell me to stop. And I would laugh, saying no. I remember, at that time, my favourite was writing about ...
I was watching some anime this week and it made me wonder. Am I broken? Am I bitter now? Have I grown into a sad pathetic person? I don't quite know. I fell down. I watched my dreams disappear in front of my very eyes. But I would like to think that I moved on. But have I? I don't quite know. Did the me who believe dreams and possibilities died? I hope not. I mean, if I did, it's better to bury me because then, I have forgotten what matters. Yes, I don't have a grand plan anymore. Why? Because grand plans are overrated. Life can change course and everything changes. And you may never achieve that plan. But I don't quite know if I don't have grand plans because I know life is unpredictable or because I am afraid of failure. Pain changes a person. But I don't want it to make me bitter. But just because I don't have a plan doesn't mean it's a bad thing. Because it also means that I am extremely flexible. Right no...
I been catching up with my friends lately and I am so happy to hear how great they are. It surprises me how much has changed since I last saw them. And then, they ask me, "How am I? How are things?" I realized that all I can say is "I'm fine." I don't have stories to tell. There is no drama in my life. Everything is going relatively well. I go to classes and enjoy my classes. I watch what I like to watch and enjoy it. I read what I read and enjoy it. Point is, I do what I do and I enjoy it. And everything is going well. And so, I just find it interesting I have no stories to tell about my life. It's very simple. But the most important thing is that I feel happy. And I do. It's like there's a certain kind of inner peace. So yea.
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Enjoy ya !!
I also love music while enjoying sleeping.
It let me dreaming in the concert or disney !!
hehe !!!
^_^