I read on two of my friend's blogs about writing essays in high school. (oh, you know who you are. LOL) And it made me want to write about my own essays in high school. I enjoyed writing so much. It was fun. Creating worlds and characters that didn't exist. It was like walking into a whole different world where you were the god. Everything was your whim and fancy. Creating characters just to kill them off. (I know I'm a cruel person. LOL) Weaving plots together. Creating whole new worlds up. It was just incredible. I loved writing so much. And as a student, there was a lot of essays to write in high school. Honestly, even though my essays were good, my teachers hated them. Why? Because my stories were not happy, clean or filled with moral values. I liked putting death, torture and despair in my stories. My teachers would frown and tell me to stop. And I would laugh, saying no. I remember, at that time, my favourite was writing about ...
I was watching some anime this week and it made me wonder. Am I broken? Am I bitter now? Have I grown into a sad pathetic person? I don't quite know. I fell down. I watched my dreams disappear in front of my very eyes. But I would like to think that I moved on. But have I? I don't quite know. Did the me who believe dreams and possibilities died? I hope not. I mean, if I did, it's better to bury me because then, I have forgotten what matters. Yes, I don't have a grand plan anymore. Why? Because grand plans are overrated. Life can change course and everything changes. And you may never achieve that plan. But I don't quite know if I don't have grand plans because I know life is unpredictable or because I am afraid of failure. Pain changes a person. But I don't want it to make me bitter. But just because I don't have a plan doesn't mean it's a bad thing. Because it also means that I am extremely flexible. Right no...
This year, I will be turning 21 years old. Legally, it means that I am an adult now. A real adult that the law can prosecute if I did any crime. But turning 21 scares me. I know that it's just a number but it isn't just a number to me. I will be an adult soon. And I guess, I don't want to grow up. I see friends of the same age as me having jobs, graduated or working and studying at the same time. I feel like they are in a whole different universe from me. I feel like I am not there yet and I don't want to be there. Yes, I am currently studying but I do have loads of fun. I read, write and go on the internet alot. I enjoy getting so involve in a story that nothing else matters and reality melts away. I enjoy ranting on the internet about stupid silly things. I enjoy watching the same stupid videos on the internet that I have watched a million times. I enjoy being in my own head. I don't want to grow up. I don't want to have responsibili...
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Enjoy ya !!
I also love music while enjoying sleeping.
It let me dreaming in the concert or disney !!
hehe !!!
^_^