The Tales of Carmensakura

Well, it's almost the end of the first month of my new job. How do I feel about it? As usual, I'm a little worried. The department that they assigned me to sounds very technical and that worries me. I never saw myself as a very technical person. I worry that it might not fit me. But long term wise, this is a good career move because this job will allow me to have experience in where I want to have experience in so it's a good thing. But then again, I haven't started in my home department. And I can only really start to feel it out once I actually start the job. Right now, I am still in the honeymoon phase of the new job because this is a programme. So they will be rotating me. Currently, I am in the branch in order to experience and understand how this business works. By being in the branch, we will be able to see firsthand how the business work in the front lines. So when we get sent back to the headquarters, we would better understand the processes and...

I spent the last year, trying to figure what I want, career wise. I spent the last year, trying to accept the fact that my university days are gone. I spent the last year, in my head, trying to figure out the direction of my life. Thus, all of this meant, I closed the doors and went inside my head. I stayed inside. I shut off my extrovertedness. I thought and thought alot. Whether or not they mattered, that was a totally different thing. I am aware that I wasted a fair amount of time, thinking. But I don't quite mind. This is my journey. My life. And if I need some time looking at the blueprint, then yes, I will look at the blueprint and see how I want to build it. I do admit that I also wasted alot of time trying to reset my mind because I kept comparing or felt inferior or just frustrated in general. But it's who I am. And I just gotta work on it. I just started my new job last week. And you can tell they want people who shine. Being in my head for the...