The Tales of Carmensakura

Well, Christmas is coming and it's my favourite time of the year. Well, I am surprised to find that not alot of people enjoy Christmas like I do or even celebrate it. Some people actually take it seriously like, if they aren't Christians, then, they shouldn't celebrate. Well, I disagree. You don't have to be Christians to enjoy Christmas. Christmas is just a time for family and friends. A solemn time to think about the year and what you have done. A time to think about what you want to do for the next year. A time to be grateful. A time to enjoy being with family and friends. Christmas is just a magical time to me. So I do take Christmas very seriously and I find that Christmas is for everyone.  Anyhow, I know that my next summer break is in May next year but I must plan ahead on what I should do because I don't want to waste it. At first, I was thinking of Internship because that'll be nice on my CV and I think it'll be a ...

To be honest, I really got nothing to say this week because my life is just going on normally. I don't have any huge problems. I am just a university student who is enjoying university life. So yea. I do enjoy university life. It's quite fun. But like all things, I know this will end one day too so I should enjoy it to the maximum currently. As I grow older, I realize more on how fleeting moments are. Sometimes that's a good thing and sometimes it's a bad thing. It makes you appreciate the moment more but it also makes me sad quicker. lol. Oh well. Anyhow, enjoy your week.

Every time NaNoWriMo comes along, I get a double identity. Student by day and writer by night. And this is something that I am rather proud of.  For this year, I know that it's relatively impossible for me to hit the 50000 wordcount. WHY? University. That's why. My university workload is heavy and I have Spanish classes during the weekends so it's not easy juggling everything. But either way, I wanted to write doing NaNoWriMo. Honestly, NaNoWriMo is one time where I get to be a writer.  I dedicate time to write and think of the story. Honestly, I am proud of that. Thanks to NaNoWriMo, I have been able to allow myself to be a writer. If NaNoWriMo weren't here, I would probably never have written a novel at all. Anyhow, it's not easy this year because November is a very busy month. I have mock trials and everything. So yea. Week 1 started out great. But it was hard work, trying to find time each day to write. Week 2 is pretty bad because thi...

Naruto manga just ended. After 15 years of running and it's only appropriate to give it some respect. I am one of the newer fans so I didn't read it for 15 years. I have only been reading this for 5 years but still, I must admit that it has been one hell of a ride. I am not going to lie and say Naruto is my childhood because it really isn't.  Even though it has been popular for a long time and it's the childhood thing to many people my age, I never really got into Naruto until really late. I never really got into Naruto because I assumed that it was this typical boring shonen thing where people fight and power up endlessly without any real plot. But one day, I watched an abridged series of Naruto and it was hilarious. Even though I haven't watch the original series, I really love the abridged.  Every single time I was sad or stressed, I would rewatch the abridged series again and again.  By now, I have probably watched that abridged series at lea...

I do admit that sometimes emotions are messy, annoying and loud. I do understand why some people might hate their emotions or having emotions.  However for me, I have never truly hated my emotions. Personally, I have always liked to sit down and pick my emotions out bit by bit.  I like to try to understand why I feel a certain way and sometimes, that helps to give me back some control. That's why most of the times, I understand why I feel a certain way. When I am aware why I feel a certain way, I can sometimes slowly change my own emotions consciously. However, there are times when the emotion is so overwhelming that even though I understand why I feel this way, there is still no way to relief myself from these emotions. This is where I feel extremely lucky that I write. I still remember a period in my life where I was extremely upset and at that point, I didn't really quite understand why. But I wrote. I remember carving out my emotions and inserting them ...

Well, school started and it's only one month in but it's been getting really busy. Yes, I been busy. I just hate it how people assume I am free or that my course is easier because I am taking something related to finance and that my course has no assignments. Guess what, they are wrong. This course isn't easy. Seriously, the next idiot who says that about my course will get a textbook thrown at them. There is alot of reading and understanding involved in my course. So, that takes time. I been a little stressed because I feel that : 1) I don't have enough time ever 2) I am taking a long time to read and understand the subject matter 3) I feel stupid compared to my other classmates. I'm beginning to find that the worse enemy is yourself. Because I am feeling stressed and frustrated due to the fact that I feel that I am not good enough or that I am not doing enough. And sincerely, I need to stop. Because these emotions won't be helpful for m...

This week has been an emotional rollercoaster for me. I don't know why exactly but my emotions has been all over the place. Anger. Frustration. Happiness. Boredom. Stress. But I guess that's just school talking. But I really need to learn relax and calm down. Because I panic, get frustrated and angry really easily. Yup.