The Tales of Carmensakura

Yes, Christmas is coming. That's a good thing. But it also means that it's the end of the year. And it's also that time of the year to sit back and review the year.  To see how you have done. And what you want to achieve next year. To be honest, I haven't really sat down and think about it yet. On whether I did great or badly for this year. But what really prompted this because I realised how noisy my head is. There's so much thoughts. But not only that, I feel so restless and impatient. I feel so distracted and yet so tempted by everything. For some reason, I feel like so flawed. So much problems. Of course, some are self created. But yet here I am. With these thoughts. Maybe I should learn to meditate. Try to quieten these thoughts.  But due to the noise in my head, I kind of know what kind of direction I want my next year to be like. I guess not all is bad. At least I got something out of it. I know reviewing the year sounds like...

Since I recently traveled, I was thinking about traveling styles.  The usual traveling style that people talk about is usually tourist or traveler. So you usually fall in between those two categories. But I find myself not falling in either of these categories. So I decided to come up with my own. I'll call it Wanderer. I have to admit that my travel style is influenced heavily by my family. I grew up in a family that usually only went to the beach for holidays. So the point of every holiday, was to relax and refocus. So in the beach, we would usually just sit by the sea all day and enjoy ourselves. And this is why for me, traveling must never be stressful. It must be relaxing. I don't like to be rushed from one place to another. I don't like waking up early mornings during a vacation. The reason why I say I fall in neither traveler or tourist is because for tourist, they would like to go to every spot but I wouldn't do that. I would go to some and not ...

I know I'm one of the rare ones who have said that I enjoy adulthood.  As I said before, I enjoy the freedom of being able to steer your life to where you want it to go. Of course, the question would be to decide where you want to go? And honestly, I haven't quite decided. I really need to get that sorted out. Honestly, although I personally do like adulthood, some parts of it is definitely tough. The other day, someone said that I should start planning for next year and what I want to do? And what I want to learn? I always find that as an adult, time is a very valuable resource. But despite saying that, I end up wasting it anyway sometimes.  I admit that there is so many things I want to learn and do. And sometimes I end up not doing anything because I'm just so overwhelmed. Honestly, I don't want to choose sometimes. Because it means tossing away the other possibilities which I want I guess. I know, we can't always have it all.  But sometimes, I r...

I have been hanging out with some high school friends lately and because of that, it has made me think about that time. As I spoke to my high school friends, I can tell that their memories and mine were a little different. To be honest, if you asked me, if I ever want to return to my high school times, the answer would most probably be no.  High school. It was an interesting time. It was filled with bittersweet memories. It was youth at its maximum and for me, it meant that I was highly unstable and emotional.   To be honest, when I was in high school, my attitude towards school was definitely hostile. I just felt like I was wasting my time. So I didn't take my studies seriously. I played devils advocate in school discussions because I just felt like it. I broke some rules just to prove that the school wasn't the boss of me. I was young, immature and most of all, confused. The strongest memory I have of high school was when I was 14. It was a time when t...

"All I see is Green Lights. All I spit is real life. Bet you don't know what that's like. - NF" I was just thinking about where I am and my life. And this song by NF just plays in my head and honestly, that's how I feel.    I just got started with my journey with life. I know that I been alive for 25 years now but it only truly felt like it started about a year back.  And I did enjoy being an adult because although it was tiring and confusing, I like the idea of being able to do what you want. To be able to sit in the front seat with your hands on the steering wheel. To be the one in charge of your life.  I admit that I was confused, scared and filled with pride. I wanted everything and yet I was scared of everything. I was impatient. I wanted the world and yet, I didn't want to put in the effort at first because I was afraid of failure. And for a moment, I was worried that if I chose a path, I had to be committed to it and what if that path suck...

I must admit that travelling isn't exactly my priority in life. But once in a while, my wanderlust hit me and I go travelling.  I still remember the days when I was in Alevels and all I wanted to do at that moment was to take a train to nowhere. In the sense of traveling, that hasn't changed. I enjoy just setting out and going somewhere. Where? I don't really know or care sometimes. But it would be good if the place is foreign. As in, a culture or a land I know pretty much nothing about. Anyway, my wanderlust hit me and I ended up in Hanoi.  Honestly, I fell in love with that charming city.  I love the hustle and bustle. The constant stream of people and noises. The narrow streets.  Maybe it's because I was born and bred in the city. But I have always enjoyed the city and its busy streets. There's a pulse about cities. And every city's pulse is different. And what makes a city alive is always its people.  Same earth. Dif...

The Apple Keynote 2018 just happened a few days ago. Being an apple fan, I must watch it and pay attention to it. What do I feel about? Let's start. First of all, I love the Apple Watch Series 4. I personally think it's amazing that it'll be able to do an ECG (Electrocardiogram). That's really cool. It's really for those health lovers to watch over their heart activity. I like that you can get a pdf of it so that you can consult your doctor for more information. I know the cellular feature for the Apple Watch has been available since last year. However, I just find it upsetting that it's not available in my country and probably would never be available ever. It almost makes me want to move just so I get that feature but unfortunately, I'm unable to. And then, there's the iPhone. To be honest, it is disappointing.  There's literally nothing new about the latest iPhone. Yes, the display is bigger and better. Well, duh. You don't ...